Today marks the one year anniversary of a day I’m not too proud of, yet, I’m proud to be able to look back upon it knowing I’m still here.
As shared on the air and on my Facebook page, I told the story of January 3, 2017, the day I gave up. I had no will to live. But with the right people around me, and a mentality of simply taking things one-day-at-a-time, I’m still here to tell my tales. =)
I’m here to help YOU however I can. I’m not a medical professional but I have lived with Mental Illness for well over a decade. It’s a daily struggle still, but I’ve found that it helps to talk about it. Feel free to reach out in the best way for you if you need someone to talk to, someone to relate.
My on-air break and the transcript of my Facebook post is below, as well as some immediate (anonymous) listener reaction.
The easier-to-read version of what I wrote on Facebook:
Most people aren’t aware that one year ago today, I gave up. I no longer saw any value in myself and was willing to end it all.
Thankfully, my parents and my good friend Ballz “knew” something was up and reached out when I needed it. I’m not sure they even knew-knew.. but they knew enough to check in on me, keep me afloat.
It all added up. Leaving my dream job, being unemployed & unable to find new work, being completely 100% broke, having good friends I’d have sacrificed everything for turn their backs on me, numerous rejection emails coming in on the same day, a rapidly failing relationship, loneliness from the holidays.. I was done.
I’m nowhere near perfect in this year since, but I’m making progress. Slowly-but-surely I climb out of my darkest hole ever and find myself again. Not without hurdles, but that’s life.
I don’t write this for sympathy or support. I’m not looking for outreach. Most of you have been outstanding during all of this and I will forever love you for this.. I write this to let others know better days are ahead. Help is around the corner. Find me. We’ll talk any time you need to.
Mental Illness is real. It’s not just an excuse, it’s not something we can simply turn around by “being positive.” It’s an issue that I fight to bring awareness to because it affects me on a DAILY basis. It’s not going anywhere, but together, we can fight the stigma and help one another out.